...Ah...
I don't think I can say I'm sorry enough. I said some stuff that I really shouldn't have said...

Squall, Quistis, Selphie, and... of course, Albel...
Is there anything I can do to make it up?

I'm so sorry...

Just when you think you've seen it all, you really haven't. No matter what you think you're prepared for, you're really not.

I got to see Albel when he wasn't... You know, Albel. It was so weird. Weird, but refreshing in a way. Refreshing because he wasn't anything the way I'm used to him being. He said he didn't really seem to like the guy he sounded like he was. That's the only Albel I've ever known, though.

That's the Albel who gets angry over everything, throws a temper tantrum, and used to call me 'maggot' every chance he got. That's the Albel that I grew close to, because he was pretty cool when he wasn't being a jerk. -- And I guess he was pretty cool even while he was a jerk. Not that I'm saying I approve or anything. I think I just prefer that Albel to the potentially nice one.

So then I wonder which Albel is the real Albel.
What path is this guy gonna' choose?

I know Selphie's been busy lately, and Laguna has too, but it doesn't mean I don't wanna see them.

Squall, are you done making Seifer want to kill you? He was getting pretty angry, you know. I wanted to try and help you, but in some ways I think you were a lot happier not knowing any of us, just like Seifer would be a hell of a lot happier if we weren't all here.
I guess Irvine and Zell are really the two go-to guys here. They seem in pretty good spirits.

Oh, and Quistis too.
Hey! Quisty, you like books, right? I bet you do. I can get you some discounts at Genoa's if you want.

You know, the last time this happened, I lost almost everything.
My pictures.
My projectile weapon.

All of it.
There were so many memories that just fell apart, and after that? I just didn't care anymore.

It's kind of like I told Albel.
I don't believe anything's eternal.

A lot of my faith has fallen.
This earthquake didn't help.

Irvine.
I think you should volunteer for the auction. ♥
Will you do it for me?

You're pretty and you could get some money for the committee. You know you want to help Selphie and me out.

So... uhm...
I had lunch with the president last week.

It was pretty cool. I wish I knew what to think.
He's more insightful than I realised. That's pretty awesome too.

Guess it doesn't hurt that he's cute.
I feel somewhat close to him. You know, like I know him or something.

I only have five classes, and I don't think any of them have all of these projects that everyone else is stuck with.

Selphie is the leader it looks like, although I don't know who else she's asked.
Kyouya, Albel, would you guys want to be a part of it? We want to do some community things for Aegean and the students. You know, something so we don't feel like we're all into work and no play.

I've fallen in love with white mochas at Genoa's Books. Selphie said we should try to work there. She'd be working in the coffee shop, but said I should work in the books. Right now, I think the books would be really perfect for me. I'm not feeling especially sociable right now.

I feel like there are things I need to say to people like Irvine and others, but I really don't... I don't think I can. I feel like I'm filling in the missing pieces, but I'm not real sure how I'm going to move on from here. It's not like being stuck...

Well... Yeah. Yeah, it is.

And I guess President Loire's here too. I still think he should be in Esthar where he belongs. Knowing him, I bet he left it in the hands of Kiros and Ward. What'll happen if something befalls one of them, though? And what about... Well, it's none of my business, right?

I guess I might as well get one thing off of my chest.
I'm sorry, Seifer.

Other than that... I don't think I say the rest of what should be said.
I just want to find things to do to keep me from thinking.

Homework, homework, homework. You're my only saviour.

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Edit:
Oh! And I have this picture of Albel and me. He has this mad look on his face, though. He took the other one, though, the one where he looks happy.

I guess that's the price I pay for me being me. I really like the pictures, though. I think I'll go to Junes and pick up a frame or two.

So Seify is here again. That makes me happy. I haven't talked to him, though, because it's starting to remind me too much of Ares that place.

That's why I left in the first place. It didn't matter that I'd gone home. When you can't be with your friends, or when no one wants you around, there's no place else in the world you can go. I guess that's really why I accepted the invitation here. I guess even I wanted to start out new somewhere that the others weren't in. Maybe Seifer and I aren't so different, after all.

Anyway, weekend is over.

Here's what I need to work on for the next week:
• Essays for history
• Essays for english
• And whatever it was I supposed to do for the music class

It's hard to concentrate when there are cute guys in the classes. Hee. ♥

Speaking of which, I wonder where Kyouya wandered off to. He worries me sometimes. I hope he's okay.

Hmm! So classes are right around the corner, right?
After the day at the beach, I really haven't felt compelled to do much. I guess I'm just feeling lazy. It was all that sleeping in the sun.

Selph Selph, before things get too busy, I kind of feel like we should go out and play. I don't really care where. I just want to go play. I never really liked school too much, so the idea of attending classes, no matter how prestigious they might be is sort of lost on me.
Let's go play! Let's go play! :3~