I seek my destiny...

Sun, 03 May 2009 05:15:11 GMT

...Ah...
I don't think I can say I'm sorry enough. I said some stuff that I really shouldn't have said...

Squall, Quistis, Selphie, and... of course, Albel...
Is there anything I can do to make it up?

I'm so sorry...

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 03:51:44 GMT

Just when you think you've seen it all, you really haven't. No matter what you think you're prepared for, you're really not.

I got to see Albel when he wasn't... You know, Albel. It was so weird. Weird, but refreshing in a way. Refreshing because he wasn't anything the way I'm used to him being. He said he didn't really seem to like the guy he sounded like he was. That's the only Albel I've ever known, though.

That's the Albel who gets angry over everything, throws a temper tantrum, and used to call me 'maggot' every chance he got. That's the Albel that I grew close to, because he was pretty cool when he wasn't being a jerk. -- And I guess he was pretty cool even while he was a jerk. Not that I'm saying I approve or anything. I think I just prefer that Albel to the potentially nice one.

So then I wonder which Albel is the real Albel.
What path is this guy gonna' choose?

I know Selphie's been busy lately, and Laguna has too, but it doesn't mean I don't wanna see them.

Squall, are you done making Seifer want to kill you? He was getting pretty angry, you know. I wanted to try and help you, but in some ways I think you were a lot happier not knowing any of us, just like Seifer would be a hell of a lot happier if we weren't all here.
I guess Irvine and Zell are really the two go-to guys here. They seem in pretty good spirits.

Oh, and Quistis too.
Hey! Quisty, you like books, right? I bet you do. I can get you some discounts at Genoa's if you want.

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 02:40:30 GMT

You know, the last time this happened, I lost almost everything.
My pictures.
My projectile weapon.

All of it.
There were so many memories that just fell apart, and after that? I just didn't care anymore.

It's kind of like I told Albel.
I don't believe anything's eternal.

A lot of my faith has fallen.
This earthquake didn't help.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 07:05:25 GMT

Irvine.
I think you should volunteer for the auction. ♥
Will you do it for me?

You're pretty and you could get some money for the committee. You know you want to help Selphie and me out.

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 06:37:18 GMT

So... uhm...
I had lunch with the president last week.

It was pretty cool. I wish I knew what to think.
He's more insightful than I realised. That's pretty awesome too.

Guess it doesn't hurt that he's cute.
I feel somewhat close to him. You know, like I know him or something.

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 07:58:03 GMT

I only have five classes, and I don't think any of them have all of these projects that everyone else is stuck with.

Selphie is the leader it looks like, although I don't know who else she's asked.
Kyouya, Albel, would you guys want to be a part of it? We want to do some community things for Aegean and the students. You know, something so we don't feel like we're all into work and no play.

I've fallen in love with white mochas at Genoa's Books. Selphie said we should try to work there. She'd be working in the coffee shop, but said I should work in the books. Right now, I think the books would be really perfect for me. ~~I'm not feeling especially sociable right now.~~

I feel like there are things I need to say to people ~~like Irvine and others~~, but I really don't... I don't think I can. I feel like I'm filling in the missing pieces, but I'm not real sure how I'm going to move on from here. It's not like being stuck...

Well... Yeah. Yeah, it is.

And I guess President Loire's here too. I still think he should be in Esthar where he belongs. Knowing him, I bet he left it in the hands of Kiros and Ward. What'll happen if something befalls one of them, though? And what about... Well, it's none of my business, right?

I guess I might as well get one thing off of my chest.
I'm sorry, Seifer.

Other than that... I don't think I say the rest of what should be said.
I just want to find things to do to keep me from thinking.

Homework, homework, homework. You're my only saviour.

Edit:
Oh! And I have this picture of Albel and me. He has this mad look on his face, though. He took the other one, though, the one where he looks happy.

I guess that's the price I pay for me being me. I really like the pictures, though. I think I'll go to Junes and pick up a frame or two.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 07:50:33 GMT

So Seify is here again. That makes me happy. I haven't talked to him, though, because it's starting to remind me too much of ~~Ares~~ that place.

That's why I left in the first place. It didn't matter that I'd gone home. When you can't be with your friends, or when no one wants you around, there's no place else in the world you can go. I guess that's really why I accepted the invitation here. I guess even I wanted to start out new somewhere that the others weren't in. Maybe Seifer and I aren't so different, after all.

Anyway, weekend is over.

Here's what I need to work on for the next week:
• Essays for history
• Essays for english
• And whatever it was I supposed to do for the music class

It's hard to concentrate when there are cute guys in the classes. Hee. ♥

Speaking of which, I wonder where Kyouya wandered off to. He worries me sometimes. I hope he's okay.

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 05:26:47 GMT

Classes! Hooray~ ♥
Believe it or not, I actually sort of like schooling and tutelage. Really. I'm definitely being serious!

There are cute guys in my history class. One of them has that silent treatment going on. I don't even think I know his name!
And then one has blue hair, and the other one acts sort of like a jerk. He feels like he has all of this arrogance stuff going on, but I definitely think he's cute. He's got some style.

I'm actually a little surprised in my music class too. There are more than I was expecting. I didn't know it would be so thrilling for people to attend it. Good thing they're cute people too.

It's sad that I don't have any classes with Selphie. :[

But! Albel brought me a parfait the other day. I haven't eaten it yet, though. I guess I feel like I should savour it or something. Heh. ^^

It's nice to have a weekend, though.
A weekend to do this, that, and investigate.

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 19:00:47 GMT

Hmm! So classes are right around the corner, right?
After the day at the beach, I really haven't felt compelled to do much. I guess I'm just feeling lazy. It was all that sleeping in the sun.

Selph Selph, before things get too busy, I kind of feel like we should go out and play. I don't really care where. I just want to go play. I never really liked school too much, so the idea of attending classes, no matter how prestigious they might be is sort of lost on me.
Let's go play! Let's go play! :3~

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 21:40:06 GMT

...So... uh...
Albel and I went to the beach.

Timber Maniacs: Volume #2

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 08:25:51 GMT

...What... exactly is this?
What could it be that I've stumbled upon?

Others have said it better than me, but there's something here.

Something very wrong.
Something very not right.

Or is it just me?

Timber Maniacs: Volume #1

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 17:36:06 GMT

Almost every moment here has been nonstop action.
I've come to Aegean, believing this was some sort of stupid test that Caraway decided to put me through.

While my stuff was being moved in, I had the weirdest guy just... launch himself at me. I thought he was part of the welcoming committee, but this guy seriously had it out for me. Knew my name, seemed to know my personality a bit, and weird stuff like that. Said he met me before at some place in Mars. I hated breaking to him that I've never been to Mars. The furthest I ever went was to the moon and that was a little out of my control.

I felt bad for this guy, though. There was just... something there, I guess. I don't know why, but the whole situation bothered me. You know, the way something eats at you when you realize you're missing something. Gnaw, gnaw, gnaw. It's just like that. Lame.

Then at the time when night switches to day, according to time, everything just went out. You know, lights, camera, and no action! Power outage, I guess, but it was still one of the weirdest things I've ever experienced. Or maybe it's the institute's way of simply saying 'lights out; you have a curfew'. Whatever the case, I had the strangest feeling come over me.

I'll have to look into it tonight. Assuming that I'm not confronted by more people freaking out on me.

Oh! And I think I saw Selphie's name on a door somewhere here.
Selph Selph, you're here, right? I can't believe you didn't tell me before. (Or maybe you did and I forgot...?)

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 07:20:29 GMT

...
I am made of so much fail.
Ugh.

I'm going to trip over myself and break an ankle, I bet.
T_T

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 17:26:53 GMT

Wow.
That's some kind of special.
~~And where'd the picture come from?~~

The Case of the Missing Thongs

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 17:25:49 GMT

....
.......
..........
When I find the person who's responsible for this, they're dead.
>O

Hear me?!
Dead!

Wed, 28 May 2008 20:58:18 GMT

This all needs to stop right now.
I'm completely serious.

No more of this geisha stuff!
I don't like touching overly hairy guys and I don't like them touching me.
I don't like the idea of them being anywhere near me!

I. QUIT.

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 02:40:36 GMT

No. No. No. No. No.

NO!

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 05:08:34 GMT

Hm... So I get to be on a jury?
Someone made a mistake somewhere, or Ultimecia remembers me.
Whatever the case... I'm on a jury.

I thought this was just a thievery situation? Why am I suddenly hearing about a murder?

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 06:31:34 GMT

I'm almost annoyed! Well, I actually am, really.

I HATE YOU, JOURNAL!

I don't talk to you, and you don't talk to me.
There is no communication.

You suck.

You are a wall. Just like Squall.

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 05:21:45 GMT

Man... Things have been sort of boring lately.
That's unlike Arcanum, though.

I did hear that Arcanum Idol is starting up again! I want to try out when they come to Arcadia!
Squall, remember that promise we made? :3

Tue, 15 May 2007 18:45:45 GMT

Thank Hyne this quake stuff is over. I've been so busy at the hospital, that I haven't been able to actually recover for myself. It's really been insane. I want to go on a super long vacation and stuff like that.

Irvine Kinneas, you owe me a hair cut and a horse ride! Seriously! My hair's starting to weigh me down and it's annoying! Get your booty in gear, cowboy! ♥

I hope the rest of you guys are okay too. I don't like worrying (but when it comes to Squall and Seifer, I can't help it).

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 20:14:35 GMT

This. Is. Unfair.
All of those people who use the train system to go to work in other districts don't have to go to work. What about the people in Arcadia, who work in Arcadia? We don't get time off. Boo.

I think if I had Angelo here, it would make things better. I heard pets are therapeutic. They lower your blood pressure just by petting them! Isn't that amazing??

Argh. Digressing.
I'm still mad about this. I wonder if Seify and Squall are too...

And... Speaking of Squall...
Hm. I wonder what's going on.
As usual, I'm left out of the loop. ^^;

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 14:46:50 GMT

... Wow. That's all that should be put here. Just a really big wow.

Some things are better left private, hm? That seems to be the moral of the story at this moment. 'Course I could just be yakking too much.

It must have been pretty bad, though. No reports or anything, not that I actually am a faithful watcher. I just want the weather. As long as I've still got that, it's fine. Still, unnerving to think a lack of report could wind up being a termination. I mean... that was a pretty huge thing. I expect to see something like that. I'm just bracing myself for the impact.

I kinda wish I could apply all of that to my own life, but then I don't think I could handle it. And you know, talking to Seifer or Squall would prove fruitless. Hehe. They can't help it, though. They'd want to avoid it, or do enough swearing to make me bleed out my ears.

What I've learned, though, is that treaties wouldn't work here. I guess the fighting was necessary. (Although, again, seeing that on the network wasn't exactly how I planned on spending my night. It seems like a reality show over the mass world of technology we have here.) So yeah... no treaties. I wish there wasn't any fighting either, though. Didn't seem like a good reason to fight at all.

On the other hand, so wrapped was I, that Rinny Rin Rin forgot her own birthday. xD I guess I've been thinking about Arcanum Idol and that whole fluffy thing. I'm looking forward to it, and I just keep thinking how cool it would be if my mom could see it too. I think in a way, she will be, though. That's pretty awesome.

Now, it'd be even awesomer if I could find Irvine. That guy's been so illusive. He makes me think of the Tomb of the Unknown King. I just hope he didn't fall in a coffin somewhere. Or maybe he's on the run because he 'messed' up on someone's hair again. :3~~~~

Irvine, Irvine, where art thou? :o

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 11:41:24 GMT

I could just jump up and down and squeal a lot, but... welllllll... No. I'm not going to. I'm happy, but I'll leave the squealing to Selphie since that's what she does best.

In any case, Arcanum Idol didn't reach Arcadia during that ill-fated time, which means I still have a chance. And you know, I think I finally found a song to sing. Maybe. I certainly like it, after all.

It's great to see everyone returning to their normal states. Let's spread the happiness around some.

... And... are those cookies? :o

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 06:06:01 GMT

Why, why, why???
I finally pick a song to sing for Arcanum Idol and... and... and I get this weird tonsilitis thingy! (At least, that might be what it is.) Ohhhh! I can't sing now! It would just look so weird coming from me!

I could seriously just cry. Please cut out the tonsils, Dr. Ephraim. T______T